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Tuesday, June 29, 2004

Hmm,I feel strangely out of place inside your blog.But,I'll carry on anyhows.

Somehow or another,I got to know about the arrangement you made with them.First of all,are you sure you're doing the right thing?Do you think its worth it?I'm the one who started all of these,and believe me,I'm really sorry about it all..And since I'm the reason why this sort of conflict began,I hope I can be a reason sufficient enough to put an end to it.

I know things have been hard for you,and believe me,I know the pain you're going through.You must think I'm some sadistic,twisted moron,am I not right?Oh well,I'm not gonna beg to differ,cause somehow,I agree that my behaviour has been totally barbaric,and unforgiving,and wilful,and all of that.

I should stop beating about the bush,what I'm trying to say is,there isn't a need for you to leave us,I don't want you to leave us,and I'm sure they just said it in a fit of anger.....I've spoken to Jake and the rest,and they pretty much regretted that decision that they made too.And,if the only reason for you to return,is for me to leave,I'll gladly do it,really..Anything for you,remember?Anything at all....

And in case I was gonna leave,I wanted to let you know certain stuffs,that you have asked me upteen times,but as usual I failed to answer.I hope this entry wouldn't complicate things between your boyfriend and yourself..And if the boyfriend is reading,I've heard you've been asking bout things the things involving Posh and us?Maybe this entry would solve part of the mystery,the Gen side of the mystery.:)treat Posh well....Alright,back to where I was.

First of all,this was the song that drew my heart to you.
"I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon(yeah)
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark grey sky
I was changed
chorus
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside(deep inside)
Was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry(cry)

The moment i saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before(and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure

You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark grey sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside(deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything...all right

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside(deep inside)
(forever was in your eyes)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

Baby. cry
The moment that i saw you cry
Oh no no
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry
(fade out)
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
:)I believe you should know when it was,when all of these took place.Forgive me,But I couldn't bring myself to tell you,or what-so-ever at that moment in time.Your heart was already broken,Nicky was laying in her all of you.And as a brother of Nick's,that should be the last thing I should do.I hope you agree with my point.

So,my dear girl,I hope you understand,I never meant for all of these to happen at all.I really didn't,and the last thing I would ever wanna do,is to hurt you..But I guess by doing what I did,it hurt you even more.I'm still here somehow,an email,a call away.You know where and how to get me,you were the only one besides Nicky who knew.I'm really sorry.

With regards to your boyfriend and youself,I sincerely wish the both of you all the best.I'm sorry if whatever I said during the Malacca trip were somewhat crude,or too harsh.But believe me,I had your interests at heart.I didn't wanna see you hurt,or crying even,because I've seen it too many times.I'm not implying that He will hurt you,I just hope you didn't get my point wrongly.I took a peep at both of your blogs,and am finally assured that He's true,you have my most sincere blessings.

One very last bit,one very last song from me to you.stay the same..don't ever change.
Chorus
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

Verse
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Chorus

Bridge
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

Chorus
I hope you remember all of the memories we shared,especially those spent with Nicky.We'll be friends from now on,I'll remain as your butler as long as you need me..A promise that I'll never break.:)Take care and God bless.

Love,
Gen.

;elysium.
6:49:00 PM